Lost friends

Have you ever lost touch with a friend and you don't know why? I have a friend that we have kept in touch over e-mail pretty well for the past few years. All of the sudden last year around this time she stopped responding to my e-mails. I find myself wondering what I've done to make her mad or what could possibly be the reason for not hearing from her. I'm sure I've bugged Brett about this until he can't stand to hear about it anymore. It's just such a puzzle to me. Well, since I started blogging I sent an e-mail to all of my friends and family to let them know so that they could check in on us. I think it was last week I noticed that someone had visited my blog from the area that this friend lives. I pretty much know that it has to be this friend but it could be someone else who knows. I just think that if it is this girl that I'm talking of she obviously has an interest so I wonder why she doesn't communicate with me. Maybe I'm crazy and I shouldn't even care anyway but it always kind of digs at me what could have happened. I'm also kind of sad because she had a baby about a year ago and I don't even know what she had. The last e-mail I received from her she said that the next day she was going to find out the sex of the baby. I have said a few times (to Brett) that I'm not going to e-mail her anymore. That lasts for awhile and then I start thinking about it again. I feel like a crazy stalker that can't get the hint. Maybe we just weren't that great of friends anyway but I kind of thought we were. I guess I'm blogging about this so if she does see this then she will know how I feel. It's possible that she doesn't have the same e-mail and hasn't received my e-mails. I just hope that I can stop wondering about the whole thing. I'm past the point of feeling hurt it's just the not knowing that's bugging me.
Wouldn't it be interesting to be able to see yourself through the eyes of someone else? That sounds weird but what I mean is that I could be walking around thinking that I'm a fairly nice person but people around me could be thinking that I'm a big jerk. I think I'm a pretty good judge of people and I try to be friends with the people that I come in contact with. I don't always go out of my way to make new friends but when I do I really treasure them. I don't know.
Anyway! Maybe now that I've talked about this I've purged my mind of it and I wont have to wonder anymore.